6/15/10

when is enough enough???

so i have sat and thought about what you can call my "come back" post on my christian blog would be. i have kinda been playing hide and seek with that blog.but finally i have found my way through a lot of prayer and thoughtfulness. you see i have been pushed away from my goals for a few reasons and i am now no longer letting them get in the way. i have spoken a little about fellowship being one of them on both blogs. and this next reason is an equal part. the other ones are private and i most likely wont be blogging about them. but this one i now have to get off my chest.

so before i moved here to Vegas, i have always known god. i have always wanted to be in his love and love my god. i never found a a church nor a fellowship that i felt i belonged to. i went to church with my life long best friend Sarah. her family opened me up to a wonderful fellowship and love for god. the church though that we went to just wasn't for me.

when i got to Vegas i met a friend. she is a christian and thought that i would love the church she went to. we tried it out it was great and now i am member, my hubs an i both got baptized and we loved the fellowship. her family and her stop going our friendship fell apart because we are two different types of women and the fellowship changed once location of the church changed.

so i will get to the point. i have been trying to be a "good christian" . i have been trying to bring her back to what she brought me to, trying to meet on common grounds, have bible studies what ever. and i guess its just a shove in the heart when the person who open those doors for you shut their own. when is enough enough? when do i no longer have to try ?? when is it enough?? because all the stunts in tat relationship make me feel like i may have not really learned anything. that maybe the person who brought me there lost their way do to me. i just don't know when enough is enough.

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